Friday, November 9, 2012

Watching Barack Obama tear up...

Watching Barack Obama tear up, making a thank you speech to his campaign team, made a thought spring to mind which made me reach for the PC and tap out this blog. It put words to an inchoate feeling all week watching this remarkable man win his second term. And it is this. He looked ordinary. He looked just like a man. So what if he is a half-Kenyan half-American son of a single mom who brought him up all over the world, and whose own life would have been meaningless had he not brought out his inner messiah to try and change the world. He is just a man. Period. The mistake I made all these years was to assume that somehow he was something more, that there was a special quality in him which would allow him to transcend ordinary divisions and surmount the usual barriers. All the hopes and aspirations of those who watched him climb to the presidency in 2008 were vested in him. The world was melting down, there were no answers and there were no leaders. Cometh the hour, cometh the man, they say. And so there was Barack Obama. The last two months of the presidential race have been fascinating because they compressed into a few weeks what we all saw about his presidency. Why did he not wipe the floor with Romney in the first debate? Why did he not sign Simpson-Bowles into law? A thousand questions and many conundrums. Perhaps the greatest thing that a democracy like the United States does for a leader is to humanize him and make him look like the ordinary mortal he is. He shines nevertheless but as a mere man. It is the beauty of the process, that asks so much of a man that he is exposed. And all his foibles and peeves are teleported into the public eye. Barack Obama is a man who became President. When he got there, he did some good stuff and he did some crappy stuff. There was stuff he could have done better. When he realised he could actually lose, he just understood his market better than his opponent and sold the product ruthlessly to the base. All this is very human. I hope the next four years of his presidency are driven by similar human impulses, not godly ones. Small steps to reach out to the Republicans, and big steps together to set America right. And for those who wonder why bother so much, look at the anointment ceremony taking place behind the Heavenly Gates. Does Li Xinping really put on his trousers one leg at a time?

Friday, March 5, 2010

The Stupidest Bastard on Earth.

I wake up at 4am, thirsty and restless. I have had a horrible dream last night, all involving terrible things happening to people. I try to get back to sleep and cannot. After tossing and turning for some time, I give up, give in and brew some coffee. The gym in this ultra posh service apartment is closed. I take myself outside to the little garden and try to clear my head.

I miss my little girl. She is now midway through her third year. She can be bratty, unreasonable, difficult. Since she is an only child, she also has a bit of a temper, and can be a bit priceless at times. If denied, she has a way of sticking her hands into her coat pocket, turning her face away from us towards the nearest wall. "I dont want anything" she will say. "I dont want appa, I dont want Amma, I dont want to go to school, I dont want to go home...". And so on. My reaction is to pick her up and quickly change the subject. "Look at this car". Or a story about what happened somewhere, or about her cousins. And then she is ok.

When she is asleep, I often lie down next to her in the dark, looking at her baby face set in sleep, eyes closed. There is often a gentle snore. She licks her lips or her face moves in a dream. Her palms are folded together, and tucked under her cheek. Her legs are akimbo. Her soft cotton nightie is all scrunched up. I look at her with wonder. What have we created, I ask myself. And how lucky I am..

Before going to bed she now has to read herself, helped by either her mum or her dad. Until a few months ago we did the reading. SInce they were books she had read before, I would often find myself nodding off to sleep. She would be in bed, sitting next to me, my left arm around her and her tiny little body jammed up against my side. I can see her little rounded back and her pretty head of tousled black hair. And her little finger jabs at the page and she says in Tamil "Read, read"...And if she finds her very old man of a dad falling off, there is a scream of protest in Tamil, looking in shock..."Dont Sleep Appa, Read".

And so I read, kissing her hair all the while....

I cannot write anymore. Mothers talk about their feelings for their children. I thought I should tell somebody that I miss my family so much it aches. What kind of life have I condemned myself to? At an age when men are consolidating their material gains and looking at a life when the benefits of an empty nest become visible, I have chosen to start a family, quit my job, begin a new and risky business that keeps me away from home, and the commute is not an hour - it is 11 hours each way.

I must be the stupidest bastard on earth.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Sehwag and Bagger Vance

Some years ago, a book came out which I am sure some of you must have read. It was called “The Legend of Bagger Vance”. Published in the cusp of the millennium, it caught the fancy of the Californian crowd I used to see a lot of in those days. Everything was booming and people were getting wealthy on exceptionally generous stock option grants.

Given all this, naturally the thought would turn to “What does it all mean” – the money, the condo, the hot car, the hot babe…And this is when the book captured the minds of the West Coast tech crowd. Quite simply, the book placed the “Gitopadesa” in a golf course. Gitopadesa – the part of the Mahabharata where Arjuna drives his war-chariot up before the vast armies arrayed before him – his uncles, cousins, relatives and friends. Looking at all these familiar faces, and confused as to why at all the coming carnage was needed, he is filled with self-doubt and asks his charioteer, Krishna, for an explanation. A young golfer, A R Junah, is coached by his caddy, Bagger Vance, on the nuances of the perfect swing. Every man has a perfect swing inside him, says Bagger, and all he has to do is to look inside of himself to find it. It cannot be taught, it cannot be coached, says the wise caddy. Execute the swing, says Bagger Vance, and do not worry about the ball.

I thought of this when I read this post while following what was happening in the second Test being played at Eden Gardens between India and South Africa. There seemed to be two games going on in a curious multiverse. I refer to the batting of Virender Sehwag.

For a long time now, Sehwag has attracted opprobrium from the purists. No footwork, they say. Plays away from the body, they say. Susceptible to the ball coming in off a length, they say. Does not tailor his game to the situation. And so on.

In the meantime, he has one of the highest averages in Test cricket, and bowlers fear him. When he is playing, he seems to be in a different zone. So why Sehwag and why Bagger Vance?

The clue is his mindset. Apparently Sehwag never goes in to inspect the pitch before the game, trying to work out how the pitch will play – even though he opens batting for India. He never thinks about the next day before he goes to bed. No smelly caps or unwashed handkerchiefs in his pocket.

What he does is, keeps his head rock still, watches the ball, and lets his instincts take over. If he is beaten all ends up by one ball, he just waits for the next one, and regardless of bowler, if it can be hit, he hits it. It does not matter that he is batting on 194 at the SCG and he is out sky-ing the ball attempting a six.

My theory is that watching a Sehwag bat is cricket’s answer to Gitopadesa in a golf-course. No thought enters his mind, no doubt creeps in. All he wants to do is wait for the right ball and murder it. He is not worried about the scoreline, the situation, the state of the pitch. I bet he does not even listen to the sledging. Never has Sehwag been caught exchanging verbals with the opposition. No way.

He just waits for the ball and whacks it, still head, eye on the ball, confident, and bereft of doubt.

The Gestalt of Cricket - inspired by the Indigoite

...The walk to the crease is lonely, no matter if you are Sunil Gavaskar opening for India or yours truly going in at No 7 for Brondesbury Third XI. You are padded up and waiting, and as the wicket falls, your teammate or your skipper gives you the nod and says "Best of luck mate" or "...75 more mate see what you can do".

..So you get your helmet and your bat, start to pull on your gloves as you bound off the pavilion and and into the oval, crossing the boundary line. You swing the bat around in an arc over your head. You stretch your hamstrings and do little hops to loosen your knees...More in hope than in warning...

..Ahead you see triumphal fielders watching you approach. You cross the batsman who has just gotten out. If he is not happy with his performance he eyes are downcast and he shakes his head a couple of times.

..As you approach somebody sings out "New batsman in lads". There is polite applause. The older player will say "Best of luck mate". The younger players will sledge. "Its tea-time granddad, better make it quick". Or "Is the beginning of the end".

..The notout batsman meets you as you get to the strip in the middle. He offers some advice. "ball's swinging a bit mate. Watch out for the Asian feller he's quick. This is a lippy lot". You touch bats and you walk to the popping crease.

...The wicketkeeper looks balefully at you without expression as you walk up. He turns to the closein fielders and says "all right fellers let's wrap this up I want me tea". You mark your bat position and turn to the umpire and take your guard..

..Its a beautiful day. Warm and sunny. All around you is a green sward bordered by good English oak and beech trees. Beyond the trees you see sheep in a farm baa-ing in their torpor. An idle tractor rests uncaring. Little rabbits bound about at the edge.

..Its strangely silent. Everything looks so far away..

..The field spreads out around you. Slips, cover, extra cover, silly mid-off and a short square leg in catching positions. You take your stance and wait as the bowler goes to the start of his run-up and turns in at a gentle jog accelerating quickly. You try to keep your stance easy and your head level with the pitch as you banish all thought from your head and look at the ball in the bowler's hand, only the ball, as he makes his leap at the crease and lands on his right foot, right arm straining at the start of the release as his hip swivels towards you and the ball is visible for an instant, seam vertical, glistening, as his right shoulder leads his body and the ball is propelled towards you. And you feel no fear, no emotion, no expectation, nothing as you watch the line of the ball and try to judge its length as you step out left foot towards the line of the ball, head level, left arm leading the bat at the top of the backlift, elbow leading towards the line, right hand steadying the bat, as you bring the bat down on the ball as it lands and rises from a foot in front of you, barely 2 seconds after it left the bowler's arm...

...Nothing matters at that moment of truth. You've judged it perfectly, and the ball leaves the bat due to pure timing towards the outfield. Or the ball drops dead at the foot of the bat. Or, the ball swings just a bit at the point of contact and you see it flying towards slip..

...That is after the fact. All you can do is play the best stroke you can..

...Whatever happens, like Auden wrote in "musee de beaux arts", Icarus can fall from the skies or the batsman is out first ball or it is despatched to the boundary in Gower-like elegance. The rabbits will bound through the grass, the sun will shine on a rural English scene and the world will go on.

..You just play the best stroke you can.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

An ordinary man

Everyone has a story to tell. And people in the unlikeliest of situations display an understanding of the world and a common sense that often jolts the jaded. As it did me, as I journeyed from Pune to Mumbai by road, and out of ennui ended up talking to the driver.

Mahesh is from Jharkhand. He has lived in Mumbai for more than 25 years. He has a wife and three children back in his village. His daughters have just attained puberty and are getting close to 18. He knows that the village will expect them to get married and he is on the lookout. His son is in school.

Leaving his family in Jharkhand was a matter of choice. He says he does not want his family to live like dogs in a slum in Mumbai when they have a perfectly respectable existence in the village. He owns land. It is scattered over the village. Every year he goes home in June or November, to coincide with the rice sowing or harvesting time. He has one crop a year, totally rainfed. In the winter his wife plants root crops and some vegetables. Asked why he did not resort to borewells, he offers the sophisticated argument that it does not make sense to invest in a pumpset when the holdings are so scattered. Besides, he says, look at Punjab. All the groundwater is gone.

What about irrigation schemes?? A big canal project was launched by Indira Gandhi when she came back to power. Much fanfare, a big occasion. A few years later she was assasinated, and coincidentally, work just died down and stopped. Now even the mud has caved in and in concreted areas, soil has filled the canal.

The discussion leads to corruption. I ask him about Madhu Koda, the infamous former Chief Minister who has set Olympic records in stealing money. He observes sarcastically that Koda will lead a comfortable existence in hospitals and then will be set free. Koda was an independent with no support, no credentials, who was propped up by one party just to deny the other. And this is what happens when you put people without any credentials in positions of power, he says. What about the current government, I ask. He shrugs cynically. They are all the same, he says.

I ask about whether the creation of Jharkhand was a good idea. He was quite happy as a Bihari and now is happier as a Jharkhandi. In the last ten years every village has been electrified. There is a sense that the development machinery is moving. He has nothing good to say about the government of Chez Yadav. Nitish, he says is doing well.

He elaborates that Bihar and Jharkhand are truly blessed. One state has very rich soil and abundant water - if only the politicians stopped stealing money from the PWD the perennial problem of the Kosi overflowing its banks due to upstream dam openings can be solved, he says. The other is rich with forest cover and natural wealth. He says there is no logical reason for the tremendous poverty in these two states.

He learns that I am Tamil, and shares with me that he has driven clients to Tirupur, Coinmbatore, Madurai etc and spent a month there. He confesses Tamil is an alien language to him. I gently tell him that for many Tamils Hindi is as alien a language. He expresses wonder at why so many Tamils learn Hindi, and he displays awareness that in the past the issue of language nearly split the country. He wonders how we stay together as a nation. He tells of taking the Alleppey Express from Alleppey to Bokaro, the number of languages you encounter - Malayalam, Tamil, Kannada, Telugu, Oriya, Chattisgarhi and finally the Jharkhand dialect. He speculates that perhaps the fact that we are a Hindu majority nation is the reason why. That, and British Rule I add. He agrees. He says after all they built all the railways that the ministers now exploit. He wanders on to the subject of our leaders just after Independence. He says that after spending so many years in jails, Nehru, Patel etc would have had no experience of government yet they managed to create this nation. He thinks they are great men. If only they had settled Kashmir as well we would not be in the situation we are in today, he says.

By now we are nearing Sion, and I see pictures of the Thakeray family and ask him the obvious question. He then educates me on the economics and politics of labour mobility. He tells me that the average Maharashtrian labourer has high expectations of wages which the local industry cannot bear. He tells me he has heard how China makes everything cheap and exports it, and he says if India has to do the same, work has to go to those who will bear the cheapest wages. Biharis and Jharkhandis will work happily for Rs 5000 a month, whereas the average local labourer will be unhappy. Construction work in Pune and elsewhere has stopped, he says, as labourers flee, and factories are closing. Who will this hurt most, he asks. Biharis will happily go the Tirupur to work in garment factories, he says, and the Tamils dont treat them badly...

I ask him about his son, what he wants him to do. His son is in a mission school run by Jesuits. He is a hostel resident, and the boy has ambitions. Mahesh says that the son will not come back to the land. To earn a living from agriculture means you need to do three crops a year, leave part of the land fallow to recover, invest in fertilisers and inputs, and have access to labour. This is difficult, he says. So when his son gets a job, he will sadly sell the land that has been in his family for generations. I suspect his ancestors got their first "pattas" after the Permanent Settlement.

He offers the sentiment that missionaries get a bad name for doing good work. They do try and convert people, but then where are the free schools run by Hindus, he asks. Religion cannot live on empty stomachs and empty minds, he says.

I sit back in silence as he navigates the tough traffic near Dharavi to get me back to my five star comfort, and ponder this whole exchange. Nothing remarkable has been said, no insights offered. Foreigner as I am now by choice, Indian as I am in my heart, I was quite profoundly struck by how very sane this absolute non-entity of a human being was. How rooted in his sense of self, his self-confidence in his world and in his abilities. Aware of the world and aware of its possibilities.

An ordinary man - ordinary, but a man nevertheless.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Google and China

Google has attracted a lot of positive attention in the United States because it has "stood up" to the Chinese government and refused to submit to censorship any longer. The operative words are "any longer", and the company took this stance allegedly because of Chinese attempts to hack into gmail accounts of known dissidents. The fact that they have now told the Chinese censor to stick it is quite worthy of applause. However this beacon of free speech - along with that other champion of open society Yahoo - had no problem putting in the necessary filters, sometimes going out of the way to satisfy the Chinese authorities. Indians would recall that Google Maps of the Indian North East show the state of Arunachal Pradesh as being an Indian state in the worldwide edition, but non-existent and a part of China in the Chinese version.

So why this newly found sense of morality and values? I look for some clues.

First, Google intends to position its online applications and connectivity as a real alternative to the desktop. Gmail is no longer a beta application from Google, it is a mainline offering that has found acceptability with businesses as well. The use of its online applications seems to be growing as broadband penetration grows. If ever there was a time to resist any attempt to intrude on this world and cause customers to lose confidence, this was it. Imagine if the emails or documents of any of the niche companies in England's Silicon Valley (near Cambridge) were to be compromised by a hacker, particularly when a lot of these companies do a lot of secret work for the MoD.

Second, there is now a groundswell of opinion that China profits from the West but behaves as a predatory mercantilist, and not as a part of the evolving consensus. The Chinese approach to most things is to remind the world of Napoleon's aphorism of the sleeping giant, and to tell the world to conform or else. I will not go into recent events relating to Copenhagen, or the propping up of abhorrent regimes in the Third World in exchange for resources. The young people who run Google are aware of this, and know that to stand up to China is good press. Obviously they have done the math and know that Baidu will continue to grow even as the internet develops a strong Putonghua presence. This is the time to earn a few brownie points.

Third, I believe that the internet is developing away from the principles that informed its inception in the free-spirited University system in the United States. Google and indeed the West is losing the battle to preserve the internet as it was. I believe nothing stiffens the back as much as having a few billion bucks($30bn in near-cash securities, to be precise) jingling in your pockets. It is called FU Money. Google has it in spades, and this would have convinced them that they have nothing to lose.

I am of the opinion that Google may pull out of China, but Chinese firms will continue to advertise in the now-free Google, adding to their already substantial search revenues. I do not believe the Chinese wil block Google. And if someone googles Tiananmen from Beijing and find instead a stirring rendition of "The East is Red" coming at them, I would advise them to enjoy the music.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

A Visit to Bombay House

It is an old building in the heart of Fort – in what used to be at the centre of the commercial hub of the British Empire in India and close to the port and naval installations. For those of us who started our careers in corporate India twenty odd years ago, this was the Mecca of Indian Corporate life. Close to it was the – then – brash and upstart high rises of Nariman Point. Adjacent were the old buildings of Colaba and the Reclamation, standing cheek by jowl with the residential and office complexes of the Maker family.

It used to be said that you can buy anything in Fort – including a set of parents. The old Citibank used to be head-quartered in Fort, next to the Parsi eating house called Mocambo’s – where the Citibank trainee could eat for free up to a princely Rs75 per meal and the rest of us had to scrape it up from our starting salaries for a plate of Dhansak. Even now, it has an air of bustling commerce, of deals being done and of trade being concluded – even as the lifeblood of Indian commerce moves out to new power centres like Bangalore and Gurgaon. Bombay is now Mumbai, and most companies have moved or are moving to Bandra Kurla Complex, or Kalina or Vashi or further beyond. Even the Tatas are no longer the economic powerhouse of Mumbai. The brash Ambani brothers occupy that position now, even as their personal feud takes the headlines in the gossip columns.

I am no longer as spry as I once was, and I would be the first to say that I am more old codger than young lion. However, a very senior member of the Tata management invited me to meet him. When my car stopped outside Bombay House I was surprised to find myself thrilled. Twenty five years ago, I would have been awed and humbled at the prospect of stepping into this hallowed building, to meet a member of the Tata elite, or perhaps spend a few minutes in the company of JRD himself, perhaps as part of the initiation rites of welcoming a new manager to the Tata fold. No such luck then, and nothing of that sort now. It was a business meeting, but it still left me quite honoured.

The entrance to Bombay House now looks like that of any portal to an important building – the ubiquitous metal detectors, the omnipresent security guards who check your belongings, and the clear injunction to get your registered and wait for someone to fetch you by name. Once you are inside, the atmosphere takes a giant step back almost half a century. There are the obvious nods to modernity in the form of doors activated by your visitor pass, the computers and modern telephones strewn around, the trill of the cellphone breaking the silence, and the presence of the odd young executive hurrying to answer a summons.

Other than that, it is an ambience that seems comfortable with the present while basking in the glories of its past. Nothing is flashy or glitzy, and there seems to be an effort to convey an impression of middle-class virtue rather than impress with the immense wealth the group controls. As the gentleman who I met and conversed with for over an hour told me, it is a culture of trusteeship. It is not a place to come and get fabulously wealthy, it is one that puts its trust in people, carefully selected to reflect values as much as possess skills, and leave them to generate wealth for the shareholder.

At the same time, there is an underlying sense that this is not some old cruise liner, this is a warship that can act ruthlessly when needed. I applauded Ratan Tata when he called the awful Mamata Banerjee’s bluff, and moved the Nano plant a thousand miles away. She did not think Tata would leave West Bengal, but the speed and the ruthlessness of his response left her speechless.

I sat in the waiting area, after my meeting was over, and contemplated all this. I felt a lot of affection for the old lady, and was glad that I got an opportunity to visit this landmark and spend some time with one of the very ordinary Indians who became someone notable thanks to the ability of the Tatas to trust and develop people. For a fleeting moment, I felt touched by the same greatness. Then I stepped out of the building and lost myself in the bustle of Bombay.